When Breathing Becomes A Thing of Intimacy

Fragile beyond perceived

Assuredly

Fragile beyond many

Surprisingly 

Disguised behind my ears

Behind my passion

Behind my lips

Tremble

I feel the pain stiffen within me

The walls of my heart thickening

Tremble

Exhale

Lungs fluttering

Blood draining from my limbs

Knees knock about with pins 

Tremble

I am much weaker than you think

Delicate

Breakable

Hurtable

Things pain me

Sink in & infiltrate my body

Poison my sleep

Bruise me

Cut me

Bleed me

I am much more vulnerable than you think

I feel things

I feel things

I feel things

I feel things 

Beyond what you think

Beyond most others

Tremble

Quiver

Shake

Frailer than you'd think

More breakable than can be seen

The bottom of my heart shatters

Crumbs

Goes down into my organs & feeds me

My hurt lives in me

Collects in me

Plays in me

Listen to me

Feel me

My breath gives it away

child

I just remember make believe

Faeries

Fig trees

Scraped knees

Goldfish in the pool

Swimming in the grass

Spiderweb laden Juniper bushes

Tangerines

Plum stained driveway

Hiding under floor boards

Crawling into cabinets & napping

Tracing each angle, each corner with my fingertips

Incomplete....

maybe

Zombie Kiss

Feeling girl Now

Maybe I do have something to write..

Feeling small

Like a speck on the back of a throat

Slightly sick

Quite needy

I'm feeling girl now

Pulled down from Woman

Penelope

I want to lay in a garden

Climb trees

Bruised knees

Little girl

I want to cuddle up in Your arms

Tangled legs

Sweaty palms

Tiny child

Rocked to sleep

I can't feel the Woman in me

That's ok

I'm feeling girl today

Cake

The consumption of food...the preparation of food...FOOD & EATING

is very telling of who you are & if I'm going to like you

Me

Sticky fingers, sticky sheets, "sticky messy child"

turmeric stained fingertips

bed crumbs

cookies on the floor

honey on the sheets

almond skins in pockets

trails of food & candy

my markings

People who can share that

share the flavors

experience

& innocence to a degree

Nothing gets me more than someone who finishes my plate

doesn't think twice about it

takes my fork

and finished off what I can't eat